Random musings...

I find myself feeling a little better this week.  A little less heady and anxious. It's been interesting to watch the Occupy Wall Street protest play out worldwide now.  I don't know how I feel about it.  On one hand it's good to see some people taking action.  On the other it's a shame to see people angrily jabbing the finger at the problem and making the assumption that the world is fucked because of some very vague group they are demonizing. I wish them luck. It does indeed send a message to politicians. Hopefully it scares the crap out of them. At least the world is awake and knows we are headed for trouble. BUT in my opinion real change starts at an individual level right at home, not in some angry mob.

So in the name of change I've been making another attempt at the practice of sitting.  Just sitting and feeling the alive presence of awareness that radiates through me. (and of course through all sentient beings...) I've been using guided meditations from the Meditation Oasis podcast on itunes. A simple ten minutes in a chair in the quiet of my den is all it take to stop the mental noise.  Finding even thirty seconds of stillness within the session is worth the effort I'd say.  I use to get hung up on my lotus posture and my inability to concentrate, but this time I am just detaching from the whole idea of achieving something in the first place. 

Perhaps we do not need to practice meditation in a certain way or achieve any new goal to reach peace.  It's easy to get caught up in fad diets, financial austerity, reducing caffeine intake, exercising more, etc. Most people do this stuff to "get well" and shriek suffering.  I for one am obsessed with self improvement, but the fact of the matter is I'm trying to improve a self that doesn't exist. What I AM has nothing to improve. I came out of the infinite, the perfect, the timeless and I only have to be separate from that by choice.

Perhaps we don't have to achieve peace.  Maybe we have to return to it...

Breath/Yoga/Thrive

-Adam