"But we try to pretend, you see, that the external world exists altogether independently of us."-Alan Watts
It's a new year and I sit waiting eagerly for all that could unfold this year. 2010 was big. It was my first year as a married man and I cautiously settled into my new job. The last two months of the year found me scurrying about enrolling at a community college to start the next phase of my life. Today I stand at the base of another mountain of dreams and aspirations.
I'm totally pumped!
I went home for the holiday and spent some time with plenty of good friends and family. Things with my parents couldn't be better. They both told me they are proud. What more could anyone want? A few of my friends are growing into amazing people, taking on the challenges life throws at them and still a few of my old pals are sinking further into alcoholism. Quick reminders of why I put the bottle down. But I must remember we each have our own lives to live. It's not my job to judge how anyone is going about this journey. We're all heading in the same direction.
I sat with a friend on my last night in town and he gave me the down low on life. Work, failing relationships, yoga, etc. Somehow we got on the topic of energy and emotional realignments. I told him about a 12 step meeting recently where I could feel an intense presence or perhaps the combination of everyone's energy in the room pulsing through my body. He said he felt that way sometimes too.
I have never really believed in all that stuff, but he challenged me to sit still with my finger tips just a few inches apart. We sat for a few minutes focusing on the energy between our hands and it was undeniably there. I've been working this into my morning meditation. It's very cleansing. In combination with deep breathing I find just a few minutes of focus on this energy very effective in getting me centered for the day.
It begs me to ask the question of how we are all related...and to what?
It's like I've always assumed there is the world and I'm just walking around in it. Maybe I'm all wrong. Perhaps I am just energy relating to the rest of the energy. Having some sort subjective experience that we are all trying to quantify and make sense of. I heard an old man once say we aren't merely our physical bodies, that we are "spiritual beings having a physical experience".
I'm starting to believe that more and more.
Peace,
mellow
